It's the start of another week; another cold morning. What's nice now, though, is that the sun is rising earlier and setting later. I can't believe how much of a difference that little bit of extra light makes on my sense of well-being.
This morning I am tired, uninspired and droopy. I don't know what's wrong; I didn't feel so great last week either. This morning, I think the feeling stems from being very tired and also that 'hangover' feeling after pigging out on junk food. Yesterday, I fell off the wagon, so to speak, of our new diet, and maaan, does the effect just knock me out - mentally, physically, emotionally. The guilt, self-loathing, and sense of worthlessness is just as intense as it always was. And now that I've been free of that mental punishment for about a month now, I realize just how liberating it is to just feel good about myself, just to 'be' and not suffocate myself with nagging, negative self-talk.
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Saturday we had friends over for dinner, so we got our apt tidied, and spent the afternoon getting the meal ready. Our apt looks really nice right now, very cozy and homey. If only we could keep it that way - clutter free!! Anyway, we prepared a very yummy meal and had a nice evening. Next weekend, I'm going to New York City with another friend of mine and I'm quite looking forward to the adventure. We're bussing down, which we both agree will be tortorous. We're arming ourselves for the trip with Gravol, ear plugs, eye masks, and chocolate.
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